Vacant Ventriloquist

I wish that I could tell you how proud of you that I am

but I’m not very good at telling you things like that.

Some days I’m wise, some days I’m kind, some days I’m not fully alive

and I’ll try, but I can’t see through the thick of it all.

So some days when you fall

I’ll be vacant

I won’t show you all that I am

I won’t show you the way

because on a day like today

I am a shell of a person

nothingness

nothing to give

to you or to I

this is how I am

when the weight of the world is too strong

and my thoughts permanently belong,

To Someone Else.